Stormy Winds of Change

Whatever the reason today has been a whirl wind.

Complete with a storm rolling in that has wind gust wild enough to make one imagine there is a chance of seeing munchkins and a few golden bricks by the end of it all.

I HAD to go enjoy a few moments of feeling the power of it all.  Just seemed a fitting way to wind down from today.  Nature is incredibly enchanting in times like these.  Pure invisible force pushing all around you, whipping things not normally taken to flight!  Its not every day you can just stand still and let the gust tangle your hair & sway you around.  A bit like its all taking you over and swirling off the old to sprinkle in the new.

Emotions blew all over the place today.  Work went from a tad sentimental, to thrilled to be over and done with one attitude, to protective of the friends I’ve made, to scared the choice I made was too rash, to knowing what I have to do is follow my heart.  Moments I never wanted to leave the place that allows me to have Baxter there by my side everyday & with people who trust me even in my final days there.  Course then there was the being accused of not doing my job when clearly it was the set up by not giving me the paperwork I had asked for repeatedly.  I even felt a bit sad in the realization that in those “lil snafus” that person finds validity in his position.  It happens more when the boss is favorable.  Like he wants to make sure the boss is all his.  Oh well.  I am grateful not to have to continue to face those challenges and that the only insecurities will be my own for a little while.

Learning more & more about someone I am getting closer and closer too & still scared to death to open up too much of my life.

So it was time for one of my favorite activities….

RETAIL THERAPY!

Even if I didn’t have the cash.  (which for the record I only spent $11.08 today!)

Pottery Barn was the highlight of the excursion.  So much potential there of what could be.  Also loved overhearing a couple of employees talking about interior design theories.  I really wanted to jump in & say “so tell me how long do I have to see Lucite chairs before they go back out of style?” but I just silently listened & dreamed over the mirrors and rugs and all the other stuff tempting me to just move right into the store.   Thankfully my dream bed wasn’t there, otherwise I doubt I would have left!

might be called the Amelie, but I think it should be the ALI

Oh to be crawling into a queen size version that with my jersey sheets & purple down comforter…

I lurved this mirror too.

It has lil stars nestled into the center spots where the lines meet.  Cute huh?

& giggled when I saw these.  Thought they were for some dollhouse somewhere, but they are actually salt & pepper servers!

See…

adorable!  Not quite my style but the tiny size just added such a element of whimsy I couldn’t resist taking a moment to dream about them!

Now I’m home, relaxing listening to all the wind, rain & thunder.  Feeling pretty lucky to live here & get to listen to storms like this.  Nothing like knowing tomorrow all the dirt & crud will be washes away & life will be like new.  Fresh starts all over.

Bonus, I saw this online…

adoring this light! WAY too large for my space, but reminds me of the full moon.  Can you imagine dining in a room with the full moon hanging to light the way? Bliss.

I do have to wonder about that big chair? Was it needed for an extra guest? or is there someone with a massive ego that MUST have a special comfy chair for his? Seems odd to me.  So many stories could be played out in this scene, but for me the light steals the whole thing.

So on to snuggle with a certain lil pug & wait to see what tomorrow brings.

Whatever it may be, its going to be what’s best.  I have faith in things are all happening as they should be.

Unemployed – the dare

So tomorrow marks the 1st day of my unemployment!

In my eyes at least.  I will work, but its on an hourly basis & as needed.  More like a consultant thing than I previously was doing.  Also after Wednesday, I doubt that I will be needed.

So the plan. (yes… the Virgo has a bit of a plan!)

  1. Work out at least 4 times a week 30 minutes
  2. Keep waking up by 8:30 for at least 5 days
  3. Apply for a minimum of 4 jobs every day
  4. Work on improving the house a minimum of 7 hours each week
  5. Each week either attend a educational course, complete a training online or do some sort of research in the library
  6. List at least seven new things to sell each week  (Etsy or other)
  7. Read a minimum of 4 hours each week
  8. Meditate daily
  9. Live on $100 a week

Looks simple right?

Did you read #9? ha ha

I have a challenge for myself.  Each week I am going to limit myself to $100 per week to eat, entertain, etc on.  This will not include bills, gas, medication or pet expenses.  It will include clothes, food, going out, all that extra stuff.  However I have a way to give myself a boost if I want it!

For the past several years, I have lived on a budget, so budgets aren’t anything new.  Living this tight is going to be different though! Pinching the pennies til I find something new income wise.

Any food in the house or anything given to me won’t count cost wise.  Also I can earn cash. I hope to earn cash! Really hoping to find a few jobs along the way to figuring out the next step in whatever career it is I end up doing.  Savings is there, but it would be nice to keep some of it IN SAVINGS! Still resolving not to touch the 401k!  But in addition to the weekly allowance I can gain some extra cash flow by earning it.

I will pay myself for doing the following things:

  • For every application I complete & submit = $1.00
  • For every hour I volunteer = $1.00
  • For every interview I go on = $5.00
  • For every extra 30 minutes of exercise beyond the 1st 4 sessions per week = $1.00

So on to the future…

I wish I could look into it & see exactly what is planned for me, but where is the fun in that?  Besides I believe that every choice we make has the power to change our path.  Which is why I feel doing this has the power to change me for the better.  I certainly hope so.

Wish me luck!

Any thoughts?  Suggestions or ideas of things I should do?  Maybe see some improvement idea or task I should do & pay myself for?

Pink & a Painting Dog on a Sunday

Spring has come a bit early after all!

Windows are open & a sweet playful breeze seems to be enjoying going from the front of the house out the back.  Flowers are even beginning to bloom.

Made it all the easier to get out of the house this morning and do a bit of exploring.  First stop the Home Expo! Unfortunately it wasn’t nearly as great as I was hoping.  After about 20 minutes I was over it.  It was free though & now I can say I went.

On to Monty’s Home Pet Expo! Much more my scene.  Saw a few friends & got to catch up on life. Felt way more like home to me than the other expo! Even got to see a certain amazon that is up for adoption with Phoenix Landing!  He was hilarious.  Clearly not interested in meeting people or being adopted.  Kept his eyes shut or completely turned his back when people came up.  He did manage to warm up some while I was there.  Again you tell me birds don’t understand & I will have to tell you that just isn’t true.  This fellow knows what he wants & its to stay in the foster home he has! Too funny the lil guy.  BIG on character.

Also got to see Netop, the painting dog in action!

What a cutie! & talented too.  He paints these paintings & sells them to help out other dogs who need homes.  Fun to watch him do his thing.

After the expo it was so nice out I decided to check out a couple more resale shops with fingers crossed they’d be cleaner & better inspiration than the ones from yesterday! I wasn’t disappointed!

The first stop had these, which were not for everyone, but I thought with all the birds in my place they would be cute on night stands beside my bed.  Would want to paint them both white & get less busy shades but they have real potential.  Course with the prices, they are best left for someone else for now.

Still the birds inside the cages were adorable!

EGG-stra special holder?

This ceramic tray was cute, but made me question – do people really unload their eggs out of the carton into special dishes?  I rarely even buy eggs but typically just leave them in the carton they came in!  Maybe it would be cute as a way to store jewelry or something.

This thing almost came home with me! Wasn’t quite sure how it would do with getting painted with the hinges, but I do know my scarves would look pretty awesome stored on it on one of the walls! Functional & cute… I love it! But saving the cash & it was a bit more than I would have thought it should be.  Thinking on it & may go back….

The mirror.  Do I need to even say anything? Beautiful.

After playing around in dream land, I headed out to get a couple of things I actually did need.

Found plenty of things I didn’t need that wanted to come home with me, but I was good!

Glittery goodness

These shoes however almost came with me for sheer kicks! Too fun & I am a girl who loves glitter!  I mean can’t you just see me going to interview in these?  With a nice subtle black suit of course!  I know… too much, but they were fun & I hope someone does get them & struts in them like there is no tomorrow.  Fun is very necessary! Unfortunately so is a good bra so that was what I ended up spending the cash on.  For some reason mine just don’t seem to last for long.  Oh well.

Another thing I thought I had found was a great lipstick – in PINK!  Never underestimate the power of a great color of lipstick to make you feel incredible.  Its been a go to for me for as long as I can remember.  My grandmother taught me early that even if you don’t feel like putting anything else on makeup wise, a bit of the right color lipstick can make you feel glamorous.  Just changes your whole mood.

Being very fair skinned with the blonde hair & blue eyes, the wrong shade just makes me look sick & ghostly.  A lot of the reds are too much, the browns just look strange & the corals just aren’t right.  So a good pink has always been my favorite.  Its a bear to find & I try to get a couple of tubes when I do find one, but lately I haven’t found any.  My last one of the old best melted in the car last week.  So now I’m stuck.

Knowing its worth the investment, I was going to allow myself to get a new tube IF I found the right shade.  So far no luck.  BUT today at Victoria Secrets I found a GREAT pink! Tested it on my hand & LOVED IT.

Chatted with the sales girl a bit & found she was the same way.  Easy to find all these browns, reds & neutrals, but pink just was a whole ‘nother story!  Felt great to know I wasn’t the only one in search of the perfect baby pink.  Hope.  So I tried a few & found the one.  The spot said ADORED & the boxes there looked the same, so I got one.  Was THRILLED.  til I tried it on in the car.  Not the same shade.  :(

So now I have no clue what color it was I actually liked!  I should have gone back in & actually almost did go return the tube, but I thought, yuck – who returns lipstick?  Besides I actually don’t hate it.  For a dark, it works.  So I’m keeping the Adored tube, even if I don’t.

But now I’m still on my quest.

My life basically boils down to a big search for things.  Peace of mind & heart.  A loving companion.  A meaningful job that doesn’t suck the life out of me…. And the perfect shade of pink lipstick.