Stormy Winds of Change

Whatever the reason today has been a whirl wind.

Complete with a storm rolling in that has wind gust wild enough to make one imagine there is a chance of seeing munchkins and a few golden bricks by the end of it all.

I HAD to go enjoy a few moments of feeling the power of it all.  Just seemed a fitting way to wind down from today.  Nature is incredibly enchanting in times like these.  Pure invisible force pushing all around you, whipping things not normally taken to flight!  Its not every day you can just stand still and let the gust tangle your hair & sway you around.  A bit like its all taking you over and swirling off the old to sprinkle in the new.

Emotions blew all over the place today.  Work went from a tad sentimental, to thrilled to be over and done with one attitude, to protective of the friends I’ve made, to scared the choice I made was too rash, to knowing what I have to do is follow my heart.  Moments I never wanted to leave the place that allows me to have Baxter there by my side everyday & with people who trust me even in my final days there.  Course then there was the being accused of not doing my job when clearly it was the set up by not giving me the paperwork I had asked for repeatedly.  I even felt a bit sad in the realization that in those “lil snafus” that person finds validity in his position.  It happens more when the boss is favorable.  Like he wants to make sure the boss is all his.  Oh well.  I am grateful not to have to continue to face those challenges and that the only insecurities will be my own for a little while.

Learning more & more about someone I am getting closer and closer too & still scared to death to open up too much of my life.

So it was time for one of my favorite activities….

RETAIL THERAPY!

Even if I didn’t have the cash.  (which for the record I only spent $11.08 today!)

Pottery Barn was the highlight of the excursion.  So much potential there of what could be.  Also loved overhearing a couple of employees talking about interior design theories.  I really wanted to jump in & say “so tell me how long do I have to see Lucite chairs before they go back out of style?” but I just silently listened & dreamed over the mirrors and rugs and all the other stuff tempting me to just move right into the store.   Thankfully my dream bed wasn’t there, otherwise I doubt I would have left!

might be called the Amelie, but I think it should be the ALI

Oh to be crawling into a queen size version that with my jersey sheets & purple down comforter…

I lurved this mirror too.

It has lil stars nestled into the center spots where the lines meet.  Cute huh?

& giggled when I saw these.  Thought they were for some dollhouse somewhere, but they are actually salt & pepper servers!

See…

adorable!  Not quite my style but the tiny size just added such a element of whimsy I couldn’t resist taking a moment to dream about them!

Now I’m home, relaxing listening to all the wind, rain & thunder.  Feeling pretty lucky to live here & get to listen to storms like this.  Nothing like knowing tomorrow all the dirt & crud will be washes away & life will be like new.  Fresh starts all over.

Bonus, I saw this online…

adoring this light! WAY too large for my space, but reminds me of the full moon.  Can you imagine dining in a room with the full moon hanging to light the way? Bliss.

I do have to wonder about that big chair? Was it needed for an extra guest? or is there someone with a massive ego that MUST have a special comfy chair for his? Seems odd to me.  So many stories could be played out in this scene, but for me the light steals the whole thing.

So on to snuggle with a certain lil pug & wait to see what tomorrow brings.

Whatever it may be, its going to be what’s best.  I have faith in things are all happening as they should be.

Unemployed – the dare

So tomorrow marks the 1st day of my unemployment!

In my eyes at least.  I will work, but its on an hourly basis & as needed.  More like a consultant thing than I previously was doing.  Also after Wednesday, I doubt that I will be needed.

So the plan. (yes… the Virgo has a bit of a plan!)

  1. Work out at least 4 times a week 30 minutes
  2. Keep waking up by 8:30 for at least 5 days
  3. Apply for a minimum of 4 jobs every day
  4. Work on improving the house a minimum of 7 hours each week
  5. Each week either attend a educational course, complete a training online or do some sort of research in the library
  6. List at least seven new things to sell each week  (Etsy or other)
  7. Read a minimum of 4 hours each week
  8. Meditate daily
  9. Live on $100 a week

Looks simple right?

Did you read #9? ha ha

I have a challenge for myself.  Each week I am going to limit myself to $100 per week to eat, entertain, etc on.  This will not include bills, gas, medication or pet expenses.  It will include clothes, food, going out, all that extra stuff.  However I have a way to give myself a boost if I want it!

For the past several years, I have lived on a budget, so budgets aren’t anything new.  Living this tight is going to be different though! Pinching the pennies til I find something new income wise.

Any food in the house or anything given to me won’t count cost wise.  Also I can earn cash. I hope to earn cash! Really hoping to find a few jobs along the way to figuring out the next step in whatever career it is I end up doing.  Savings is there, but it would be nice to keep some of it IN SAVINGS! Still resolving not to touch the 401k!  But in addition to the weekly allowance I can gain some extra cash flow by earning it.

I will pay myself for doing the following things:

  • For every application I complete & submit = $1.00
  • For every hour I volunteer = $1.00
  • For every interview I go on = $5.00
  • For every extra 30 minutes of exercise beyond the 1st 4 sessions per week = $1.00

So on to the future…

I wish I could look into it & see exactly what is planned for me, but where is the fun in that?  Besides I believe that every choice we make has the power to change our path.  Which is why I feel doing this has the power to change me for the better.  I certainly hope so.

Wish me luck!

Any thoughts?  Suggestions or ideas of things I should do?  Maybe see some improvement idea or task I should do & pay myself for?

Pink & a Painting Dog on a Sunday

Spring has come a bit early after all!

Windows are open & a sweet playful breeze seems to be enjoying going from the front of the house out the back.  Flowers are even beginning to bloom.

Made it all the easier to get out of the house this morning and do a bit of exploring.  First stop the Home Expo! Unfortunately it wasn’t nearly as great as I was hoping.  After about 20 minutes I was over it.  It was free though & now I can say I went.

On to Monty’s Home Pet Expo! Much more my scene.  Saw a few friends & got to catch up on life. Felt way more like home to me than the other expo! Even got to see a certain amazon that is up for adoption with Phoenix Landing!  He was hilarious.  Clearly not interested in meeting people or being adopted.  Kept his eyes shut or completely turned his back when people came up.  He did manage to warm up some while I was there.  Again you tell me birds don’t understand & I will have to tell you that just isn’t true.  This fellow knows what he wants & its to stay in the foster home he has! Too funny the lil guy.  BIG on character.

Also got to see Netop, the painting dog in action!

What a cutie! & talented too.  He paints these paintings & sells them to help out other dogs who need homes.  Fun to watch him do his thing.

After the expo it was so nice out I decided to check out a couple more resale shops with fingers crossed they’d be cleaner & better inspiration than the ones from yesterday! I wasn’t disappointed!

The first stop had these, which were not for everyone, but I thought with all the birds in my place they would be cute on night stands beside my bed.  Would want to paint them both white & get less busy shades but they have real potential.  Course with the prices, they are best left for someone else for now.

Still the birds inside the cages were adorable!

EGG-stra special holder?

This ceramic tray was cute, but made me question – do people really unload their eggs out of the carton into special dishes?  I rarely even buy eggs but typically just leave them in the carton they came in!  Maybe it would be cute as a way to store jewelry or something.

This thing almost came home with me! Wasn’t quite sure how it would do with getting painted with the hinges, but I do know my scarves would look pretty awesome stored on it on one of the walls! Functional & cute… I love it! But saving the cash & it was a bit more than I would have thought it should be.  Thinking on it & may go back….

The mirror.  Do I need to even say anything? Beautiful.

After playing around in dream land, I headed out to get a couple of things I actually did need.

Found plenty of things I didn’t need that wanted to come home with me, but I was good!

Glittery goodness

These shoes however almost came with me for sheer kicks! Too fun & I am a girl who loves glitter!  I mean can’t you just see me going to interview in these?  With a nice subtle black suit of course!  I know… too much, but they were fun & I hope someone does get them & struts in them like there is no tomorrow.  Fun is very necessary! Unfortunately so is a good bra so that was what I ended up spending the cash on.  For some reason mine just don’t seem to last for long.  Oh well.

Another thing I thought I had found was a great lipstick – in PINK!  Never underestimate the power of a great color of lipstick to make you feel incredible.  Its been a go to for me for as long as I can remember.  My grandmother taught me early that even if you don’t feel like putting anything else on makeup wise, a bit of the right color lipstick can make you feel glamorous.  Just changes your whole mood.

Being very fair skinned with the blonde hair & blue eyes, the wrong shade just makes me look sick & ghostly.  A lot of the reds are too much, the browns just look strange & the corals just aren’t right.  So a good pink has always been my favorite.  Its a bear to find & I try to get a couple of tubes when I do find one, but lately I haven’t found any.  My last one of the old best melted in the car last week.  So now I’m stuck.

Knowing its worth the investment, I was going to allow myself to get a new tube IF I found the right shade.  So far no luck.  BUT today at Victoria Secrets I found a GREAT pink! Tested it on my hand & LOVED IT.

Chatted with the sales girl a bit & found she was the same way.  Easy to find all these browns, reds & neutrals, but pink just was a whole ‘nother story!  Felt great to know I wasn’t the only one in search of the perfect baby pink.  Hope.  So I tried a few & found the one.  The spot said ADORED & the boxes there looked the same, so I got one.  Was THRILLED.  til I tried it on in the car.  Not the same shade.  :(

So now I have no clue what color it was I actually liked!  I should have gone back in & actually almost did go return the tube, but I thought, yuck – who returns lipstick?  Besides I actually don’t hate it.  For a dark, it works.  So I’m keeping the Adored tube, even if I don’t.

But now I’m still on my quest.

My life basically boils down to a big search for things.  Peace of mind & heart.  A loving companion.  A meaningful job that doesn’t suck the life out of me…. And the perfect shade of pink lipstick.

Doing things differently

So last night I ended up in bed with a smile on my face by 10 pm.

No big party animal here,  but I slept.  It felt great.  For whatever reason when I woke up at 5:30 am I thought – BEACH!

earlier than I could imagine I would be up & out

Sunrise on the Carolina Coast is one of the most beautiful gifts of life you can view, if you can break away from your daily schedule to catch it!

waking up

I don’t regret it a bit, but I came home with hopes of doing so many things with the advance on the day.  Breakfast at a favorite spot, a home convention, pet gala, take Baxter to the dog park since he loved it last week, maybe even get a start on a few applications I need to get in.  Clean the house, spruce up the bird cages, grocery shop, meet a couple of friends.  It was chilly so when I got back home, I cuddled up under a blanket & hopped on the laptop….

then around 11 am I woke back up!

the day flew right out from under me it seems.

But I did get a few things done around the house, and got in a few applications for a couple of volunteer positions.  When working full time it was just too much to try to volunteer any more than I already was, but it hit me this morning – why not now? Sure there are plenty of things to do around the house & time with family is going to be key while I can get it, but nothing stopping me now.

Thankfully they are quicker about responding than a paying gig, so it looks like I have found a way to give back while I am in transition. Can’t wait!  More details on that to come.

Even managed to venture to a couple of resale shops, but nothing worth seeing there.  Just made me want to take a shower afterward.  Funny how some are so nice & some just gross.  Not kidding one I went in today had a couple of canisters with leftovers in them! One had a clumped line of sugar at the bottom & the other… who knows what that stuff was! Nothing came home from either place! eek! But 2 new places checked out.

Now more applying, less mind wandering & then its off to shower & dinner plans at Pizzetta’s! Which is turned into a new favorite! Can’t wait! Love my Saturdays!

 

Laugh as long as you breathe

So the final date at work has officially been set.  Thankfully the interviews went great (well a couple anyway) & they have it narrowed down to 2 people.  Both are highly qualified & I feel like I am leaving the post in great hands.  By Monday its going to be all decided.  Since neither is currently working, it opens up me to leave soon.  So today was my last day on salary.  My last full work week & my last full check for today’s pay day.

Monday I go back with a raise & will work hourly til Wednesday.  After that we are just going to see how things go.  I’m there if they need me to come in to help & I’m not already out of town.  Leaving on good terms & feeling better about leaving them knowing someone is going to take where we are & bring it even further to where the company needs to be – without all the emotional distractions that I had to deal with this past year.  Its a win- win.

I sincerely am going to miss the guys there.  Even with the times I wanted to ring a few necks, they really are a great group.  So this morning since I was up early, I picked up some hot Krispy Kremes!

they must not have put a whole dozen in there... or donuts go REALLY quick around here!

The GREAT news is that thing improved with that certain special family member & it looks like my time back visiting will be less of helping out and more about making memories.  I feel blessed. Also its good news that I don’t need to be there right at the first of March.  Wiggle room is always a good thing it seems.

So after hanging with the parrots a bit & snuggling with the pug, I decided to get out of the house for a while.  Plus a certain budgie was getting on my nerves thinking my earrings were there for the sole purpose of him to nibble on.  It was time to put them back in cages & get a change of scenery.

More time to dream…

This was just $12.99, but with no extra cash or wall space, I had to just admire for the moment.

I could see a display on a wall behind a couch with the 3 of these positioned at various levels.  Or maybe just one above a fire place mantle.  Also though it could be cute on my closet door on the outside side.  But I save the $12.99.

new night stands?

These dusty guys caught my eye.  I envisioned them painted white with new knobs.  Could be really cute.  No clue how much they were but when I checked the size & smoothness of the drawers I found out the back leg on the one on the right wobbled off.  So I wonder if they would discount further.  Alas… just dreaming.  But if those are still there, could be a great project!

This saying melts my heart.

I love you to the moon & back.

Who doesn’t want to hear that?  Love it.  Also saw a less attractive framed piece of art that said “Laugh as long as you breathe. Love as long as you live.” Now that would be a blessed life indeed ~ love it!

Lights

So not the night I had planned.

No dinner. No Shadow… just another bad timing BS.

& now I remember while he has great timing sometimes, he has NO time other times.  Which is one reason it didn’t last before.

So what’s a gal to do? Go have fun on her own.

Which meant blasting some music, singing along & dreaming about making over a bedroom.

Which included a trip to Home Goods!

Love these. Even the shades!

The black shades with the white lines are adorable.  I think I like the white beaded base, but then again something isn’t quite my thing.

the bases on these are perfection

Can’t go wrong with silver! The shades need a little something.

Not so sure about the grey shade, but this is cute

I like the base, but the grey shade… not so much.

shame I don't have room to get Baxter one of these! But I am saving for my own bed

I did good.  I only walked out with the pictures…even if a few things REALLY wanted to come home with me.  Still in purge mode.  Besides tomorrow might be pay day, but I know its going to be one of the last ones I have for a little while, so not going to spend any I don’t need to.

Thankfully it doesn’t cost a thing to dream!

Wow

Ok case in point of why I am going to see Shadow today… (in case I regret it later)

Just got a text showing the tiny bamboo plant I gave him years ago when he was moving from a goregous big house on the water to a tiny apartment while he looked for a new house.  He didn’t want to rush in buying anything, so he moved into the apartment til he could find the perfect place for him.

she is small no more

Anyway, for whatever reason this picture melts me.

Its alive.

Its grown.

Its still in the center of his house.