Hope Glows Like a Chandelier

Remember how I dreamed of redoing my bedroom & then put all that on hold after changing & then leaving my job?

study session

I wanted so badly to just change it all from top to bottom.  I really did mean start at the top!

Even tried to make a faux capiz chandelier that basically would fit over the existing unit & replace the cover!  That stupid thing is STILL waiting around for me to finish.  It may end up chunked in the trash very soon. I tried to make lemonade out of the lemon of a bedroom light I had, but without the sugar it just ended up sour & unfinished.

 This weekend I got offered some free handy services from the Crab.  He had noticed a few things that to me would mean expensive outside professional help, but having previously built a few houses himself, he had the knowledge & ability to fix.  Some seemed simple,  but annoying – like the bathroom door that seems to enjoy trapping people inside with its required random number of turns to open.  Some seemed monumental to me – like the dripping faucet IN THE BATH TUB! No clue how to even begin to tackle that one.  I seriously had visions of needing to rip thru a wall to get to the pipes.  Deal was I bought the supplies and he would give free labor, I tossed in dinner for good measure & we were off to the home improvement big box.  Several trips & hours later, I was beaming at all that had been accomplished.

thankfully it wasn’t THAT drastic!

Then he mentioned the fact that the two bulbs in the ceiling light in my bedroom were driving him crazy being two different wattages or shades or whatever it was.  Honestly I didn’t think it mattered as much as I hated that light.  Course I agreed that installing new matching bulbs would be a good thing & off we were…. almost.  Then I brought up the chandelier & how I had dreamed of popping it up one day.   I’m sure he probably regreted the next statement, but there it was “I can put that up if you want. Its not hard.”  HA!  Not hard my ass.  It is when you have no clue what’s what.

Out came my crystal laden beauty!  After some adjusting for height, there it was – up and on!  The dream was one little step closer to being reality.  We talked of moving stuff around & replacing this or that.  But mostly all I could do was stare in wonder at the light, finally where it should be lighting up my room.  It already felt/feels cozier & more me.

Maybe the dreams aren’t totally dead just yet.  Sometimes I guess it takes a few steps back & letting go to move forward.  Then again a great side kick certainly helps too.

Tomorrow I attempt to tackle the summer clothes purge – 100 things gone (yes I have more than enough clothes to wear! Sadly I may be a clothes hoarder).  We dropped off one bag at the Goodwill today with 26 things no longer needed.  Tomorrow going for at least another 75!  We shall see.

Also looking forward to registering for classes in the morning & figuring out what the next few months are going to look like.  Hopefully I can get into the classes I need & maybe even have some time left over to get a part time job & bring in money to assist in taking a few more steps to home improvement.  We shall see.  But tonight I am going to be snoozing under my very own chandelier – feeling pretty proud, pretty loved & just plain pretty.

Moonday

Full Moon, Start of a new week & potentially start of a few more new pieces to my puzzled life. One being I am back on insurance again – finally! A couple more things in the works that I hope to share soon. As much as I would like to lay back and just enjoy life as it comes, there is more work to be done.

Like this homework I have basically been staring at for about an hour. The case seems easy enough to understand, but applying to the questions is driving me nuts. Growth I guess. If it were easy, I wouldn’t exactly be learning anything new.

Probably should have worked on it yesterday, but there was too much to take in and enjoy. Visited Airlie Gardens and explored a world full of more history and beauty than I could have imagined. Why have I lived here so long and only been there for work or weddings? Never to just relax and see it all. Went at night for a holiday event, but its different by day. One of those places where you could probably go 20 days in a row & still see something new each day. A place where you just want to kick off your shoes and wander barefoot knowing you are connected to it all.

Today brings the full moon.

One of my favorite sights. How can you see the full moon in the sky & not pause in awe?

With it I am going to strive to enjoy each moment to the fullest until the next full moon & beyond. Maybe its time to shake things up. Move around more. Starting with this house. Hopefully by the next full moon it will look different.

That is my full moon wish this month – to change my home for the better.

Starting with another purge

First 10 things down, then 90 more to go. Look out donate bin, I have some clothes coming your way!

Game on!

Stepping Out

Feels like the moments in life lately just keep zooming by.

“I kept looking for happiness, and then I realized, this is it. It’s a moment, and it comes, and it goes, and it’ll come back again.” – Nicole Kidman

Had a few ideas over the weekend that give me hope and although life may not be what I expected, why not make it what I can? But those will have to wait for now.

Surprisingly I got in some IKEA time this weekend!  Even with the parents in tow.  Mom got a new wheelchair, which means she can do more without worrying about wearing herself out & not being able to get around as much.  Just what I needed – time dreaming in IKEA without the guilt of not spending time with them!

oh to come home to relax here

Feel in love with a few looks, but only one came home with me.

YES the night stand.  Which of course being IKEA needs to be put together.  Perhaps tomorrow.  Baby step towards the room I want but steps.  Ideas are blooming & hopefully one day I will walk in the garden I dream of.  Until then I have hope.

My One Night Stand

Dream mode again.

Another long day at work followed by wishing.  Spent a little while browsing houses online & wondering why on earth some people are allowed to use wall paper.  Some of its is just so wrong.

Still I have white walls.  No room to toss the stones here.  At least they attempted to make the statement with more than just a few things nailed to the walls.

Feeling stuck again.  Now that I am more secure job wise (can’t believe its been a year since I left my old job!) I feel like I should be working toward making more of a dream.  Still do I move? or do I redo?  Investing in one or the other.  Not both.  Focus.

Haven’t found the dream house (at a price that is reasonably in my limits) & haven’t found a dream bedroom (IKEA discontinued a couple of pieces in the other one I had in mind).  So for now dream.  Spread the wings & entertain all ideas.

this had a lavendar inside! too cute! love Home Goods.

Nightstand?

loving this look still.

can you imagine how much I would need to clean this?

maybe?

much better... or at least practical glam

or maybe I should just keep imagining & see where my dreams will lead.

keep the purchases small & easy to move if need be.

loving these! May need to go back & snag at least one.

Who knows what life has in store.

PIER ONE GIVE AWAY WINNER!!!

In honor of my recent bout with the Sinister Sinus Infection, I should give away these adorable tissues to everyone who read thru the sniffy complaining & whining.

But unfortunately I won’t be.  Lets just move right past that whole illness thing & go on to better days! I know I am ready.  The stuffy nose may still be here, but I am feeling better.  Soon back to normal.

Oh & if you really are in love with those tissues, you can easily snag a package at Pier One Imports.  Seriously they are too cute to use, but I would anyway!

pier one dreaming

I am lucky enough to have a couple of Pier Ones in town & there isn’t a time I go in there where I don’t feel like a kid in a toy store – wishing I could at least pick one thing to take with me since I’ve been such a good girl.  More often than not, my wishes exceed my checking account, but the dreaming is always fun.

Yesterday I made it through the entire day of work and all the chaos of being out most of the week.  Came home, checked my personal email &  felt like that kid being rewarded for being good! I won a gift card to Pier One!  Not even joking here.  One of my favorite blogs to dream with Courtney Out Loud, was doing a contest & of course I entered.  One of the ways to enter was to comment with what you would buy if you won.  Which lead to a couple of hours of dreaming & the verdict was either the new bed I have been wanting or a chair to replace the ottoman that has been pulling double duty as both the intended ottoman & sewing stool at my desk.  Both choices would be MAJOR improvements.  Imagine my surprise when I won!

So now the fun challenge begins.  Do I keep dreaming about ideas or hold myself to the two choices? Whatever I end up doing, its going to be GREAT!  Spending the $50 prize and more cash will not be a problem in Pier One!

So a BIG THANK YOU to Courtney Out Load & Pier One.

You have truly made a cruddy week wonderful!

On Hold

I planned to spend the weekend with friends doing fun things and getting more done in the house.  I planned on being able to crave working out each day for 30 minutes by now since its been over two weeks since I started.  I planned on being at work this morning at 8:30 ready to face the day & do what I do.

All that got put on hold.  My body had other plans.

Woke up feeling worse.  Or maybe the same, but knowing I couldn’t feel like this made it feel even worse.  I got up, dragged myself to the bathroom to start the morning routine & with tears in my eyes realize it was not happening.  I wasn’t crying.  More like the eyes watering thing you get when you just feel awful physically.  My body still aches, my head is pounding, felt dizzy, stomach is twisted and I can breath thru my mouth still even if my nose seems to be on vacation, but at least mentally the sleep did me well.  So I am using the first paid day off of 2012 – as an actual sick day.  Bummer.

So back to bed.  Popped a couple of pills & chugged down more water.  Hoping that resting and sleep will kick this to the curb.  So Baxter at least seems happy with my choice.

So why I am blogging instead of snoozing?  That would be the parrots.  For whatever reason my staying home has them excited & in no mood to stay quiet.  Again I am wishing for a bigger house & a dedicated bird room or space.  Some way to get away & rest quietly.  I love ‘em but sometimes….  so instead I will lay here & rest.  Dreaming of quieter places.  Maybe wish that I hadn’t put my bedroom makeover or moving to another place on hold.

blue boudior

study session

ME me Me

The past few days have been full throttle.  In a great way, but tiring none the less.

Work – intense, non stop, what more can I say? Steady & mind numbing at the end of the day.  Its as if the data base just hops into my head and the stops & starts of changing gears thru the day just wears down my mental energy.  I love it, but am still STUNNED by some of the people and the stunts.  Who brings a freshly smoked from bowl to the temp staffing agency to get a job? Oh I could tell you! They did admit to possession charges.  Guess the lesson wasn’t learned.

Got the chance to catch up with a few friends, even help one move the final bit of stuff to her new place – which I’m thrilled to say isn’t as far away (not that the other place was far!).  Always nice to get out and have dinner with friends.  Plus it was interesting to see how much the car held. No way all that would have fit into the convertible!  Even with the top down it would have been a no go.

Still looking at houses, still wondering what I am doing.  Although there have been a few more maybes added to the list.

Just feels like I haven’t had time to breath lately.  Even ended up turning my power nap yesterday into just a really sleep filled Friday night followed by a sleep through the night without any pills needed Saturday night!  Maybe now some normal energy?

Treated myself today to getting my hair cut & highlights added.  Money I have been putting off spending, but well spent.  Still second guessing these bangs.  Did them less this time, but I’m thinking….grow out.

Shame I didn’t treat myself to a favorite brunch spot today.  I had some re-editing of the layout of the book I’m getting ready for publishing (oh yes again – I’m learning a lot about what all it takes to get it right!) & decided to 2nd guess my taste buds.  I wanted to go sit and have an omelet or chicken sandwich or anything else off the menu, but thought… its the weekend lunch, they will be busy.  So I decided to drop in and pick up another place I like… chain but they have killer sweet tea.  Also HAD a turkey panini I liked.  So I got the baked potato with cheese and TRIED to order the typical smokey turkey & pepper jack panini without mustard – but the menu had changed.  It now came with bacon & is a “grilled sandwich” instead of “panini”.  No biggie, just hold the bacon & mustard, right? WRONG.  Evidently that made me needy.  The chick running the register had to ask if she could get it like that. WTF?  They did but I over heard another authoritative sounding server say  something to the effect of we can do it right now, but when it gets busier we can’t.  REALLY?  YOU add extra ingredients to something you previously had & I can’t get it without the extra? and face it, not everyone eats pork.  This includes the oh so trendy bacon – EVEN IN THE SOUTH.  Top of that, some people get the TURKEY options since they don’t eat pork.  I was miffed and already planning that this might be the last visit to this place in a looooong time.  Killer tea or not – if this is how they are changing no wonder it wasn’t busy at 11:45 on a Saturday afternoon.

Might as well have gotten some fast food sandwich with fries from my car.

So moral of the story.  Make time for the good stuff.  I’m POSITIVE if I had gone to where I would have gone they would have treated me with respect – like they do everyone.  Also the food would have been about 100 times better at the same if not less the amount of money spent.  So tomorrow…. I’m eating where I wanted to eat.  Treating myself to the good stuff.

Baxter’s impression of me…